Friday, October 06, 2006
I run my fastest
But still get beat.
I land on my head
When I should be on my feet.
I try to move forward,
But I am stuck in rewind.
Why do I keep at it?
I won't be left behind.
The harder i am thrown,
The higher i bounce.
I give it my all,
And that's all that counts.
In first place, Myself, I seldom find.
So I push to the limit --
I won't be left behind.
Some people tell me you can't,
Some say don't.
Some simply give up.
I reply, I won't.
The power is here,
locked away in my mind.
My perserverance is my excellence,
I won't be left behind.
Make the best of each moment.
The future is soon the past.
The more I tell myself this,
The less I come in last.
Throughout my competitions,
I've learned what winning is about.
A plain and clear lesson --
Giving up is the easy way out.
So every night before i go to bed,
I hope in a small way I have shined.
Tomorrow is a brand-new day,
And I won't be left behind.
Sara Nachtman
My perserverance is my excellence and the power lies in me.. After thinking for 2 night, and after hearing advices from friends around me. I am withdrawing from school, though it might sound like something really bad but just look it at another point of view whereby it might be good...
"I run my fastest , But i still get beat. " I might forced myself to go school everydae but till the end I am still the one who are beaten my the criterias that I couldn't fulfill in order to get my cert.
"I try to move forward, But I am stuck in rewind." I tried hard to adapt to RP's environment but i really can't. Maybe I didn't tried very hard but in my heart I know that's not what i want...
"Some people tell me you can't. Some say you don't. Some simply give up. I reply, I won't" , " Giving up is the easy way out." To people out there, I really won't. I never thought of giving up in my studies just i have yet to find what i want and i am very sure what i am studying now is not what i want either. So withdrawing from it doesn't mean i gave up on it but i just want to give myself a chance to search for what i really wants. Maybe i still can't get it straight now but army is a time for me to really get more mature then what i am now...
Now having to make the decision to withdraw... I have so much time now to either work or i might be planning to take up dancing lesson... I still have some time till i receive my ns letter... I don't wanna spend my time at home everyday doing nothing... Maybe it's really time for me to think far and grow up which i never had been doing...
I hope my decision is right and would never regret in future cause this is my decision, no one influences me, its purely decided by me....
Life has been dull, I'm living in the darkness, When will my light appear and shines out to the surrounding...
